In another moment down went Alice after it, never once considering how in the world she was to get out again.

Friday, January 25, 2008

Sickness and despair!

Sickness and despair strikes us all in our times of need! Well, actually I was horribly sick yesterday after spending time at the bf's pad as usual, in spite of his whole household being ill. Thank goodness I was well enough to work today- i got pretty worried last night what with having to take 2+ hours to consume have a plate of rice due to feeling weak.

Oh yes, I'm working now. Can't tell much about it- anonymity and all. Part time job that pays for peaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanuts. But good job experience, and it's just as well since i have a PHD to think about later. Can't really handle a PHD at the same time as a full time job methinks. (gah)

Anyway, all is well and I managed to get my work in today. Just as well too, since I'm being paid per hour. >.>

Well, of i go to have an early night.

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Juggling, demands

Phew, lots of juggling of responsibilities here. Well, actually, not all of them are responsibilities. Some are simply demands. So, which demands do I give in to? The ones from family? The loudest ones? The most persistent? The ones which throw the biggest tantrum when not met? The ones that keep piling up more demands?

The ones I have the most hope in?

Yeah, it's that kind of post today.

Monday, January 07, 2008


Or unholy, more likely.

Hippo: "Awwwww, you're what a delicious looking blog reader you are. Lemme give you a kiss..."

Ban: Noooooo.... Leave my readers alone!
Hippo: Gah! Unhand me! It's just one bite! One biiite!
Ban: Nooooooooes!!!!!


(It's my bro's christmas present. Yes, it's scaaaaaarry.)

Friday, January 04, 2008


I can't sleep. Okay, maybe the total lack of air conditioning in the room is bugging me. Or the lack of space on the bed (sharing with Shane). Or the fact that Shane's dad found the condom and had 'the talk' with me and Shane. I did have an afternoon nap earlier too.

I'm feeling nervous. I don't why. I don't actually want to go to sleep just yet. I think I'll spend the night writing a cover letter.There's some advice on the net that I can't use a sample cover letter for teaching positions. Bummer eh?

Sleep well, everyone.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Party your way to 2008!

A Christmas overnighter at the good doctor's, another overnighter for new years at Lifebook's pad, and a last minute pool party at Ezra's. Quite a few parties over a short space of time, and I'm wiped. In fact, I'm on the verge of falling sick. Maybe, I think I've managed to keep it away.

So, what was 2007 like for moi? It was about making mistakes, struggling with feelings, sorting through priorities, working towards goals, falling short, making some headway... pretty much the same as any other year really. Except this year I was attached to someone very precious to me. It's wonderful, yet a great deal of effort and sacrifice. Also, as noted in previous posts, I've made a great deal of special friends.

- I completed my Masters in Special Education. Did pretty good too, and I can tell you the course was no pushover. Finding a job that I actually needed that qualification for however... well, I'm still working on that.
- I maintained a distance relationship. That... is no joke. God knows how Suniyo and the Godfather manage it.
- I managed to get close to Shane's family. This was unexpected. ALL of them know I'm his boyfriend, and the father isn't thrilled with the idea of guys sleeping together in the same bed. How he can accept me is a big wonder. Then again, I did dedicate a ridiculous proportion of my time to stay at Shane's.
- My biological father had liver cancer. I won't discuss this in more detail here as it'd take forever.
- Partied like.... heck. See the next point.
- I spent waaaaaaaaaaay too much. I'm keeping track of whatever money flows out of my wallet and for what purpose, thanks to Shane's initiative. It helps, but it seems to be pretty hard to control. Dinners at restaurants, presents (Birthdays and Christmas season) and petrol mostly. I've never spent even near this much in my whole life put together compared to the past year. No, I'm serious. Estimated expenditure in the last 6 months is over RM(edited for privacy!). That's a ridiculous amount. I wouldn't feel so bad about it if I actually earned any of that money myself, but I didn't.

So, what about next year? A few things are constantly on my mind, regardless of the traditional new year resolutions:
- Get work, earn money. Hurrah.
- Spend less. Way less. How? I have nooooo idea.
- Keep working at relationships. That includes the BF, my own family, relatives, friends.

I still have much to learn.